Don't put that in your mouth! You're back up to 199 pounds!

Well, hello there! Yes, it has been over a year since my last post here. And guess what? In that year I've let myself get back up to 198 pounds. It's a sad, sorry story, filled with stress, too much Miller Lite, and the inability to resist multiple helpings at dinner. So here I am again, getting ready to meet with my doc tomorrow and see if she'll give me, yet again, more drugs to help me control my appetite and increase my metabolism.

Of course I need to do my share by eating a hell of a lot better, by finding a different way to deal with my stress than popping a Miller Lite, and by making the time to exercise at least 30 minutes every day.

If I'm going to make changes, they have to be now and they have to be permanent--time is against me since I'm only 358 days away from being 40.

Me and the boys at Magical Kingdom

I don't like being this fat person. I'm NOT this fat person. And I refuse to stay this fat person. Now is the time to start getting rid of this fat person.

199 today,

Melissa

Don't put that in your mouth unless you want to weigh 198 pounds again!

Holy shit, has it really been 6 months since my last update? Time flies when you're having fun, eh? Well, 6 months later and I'm still down from my "starting" weight of 198, however, I have let a few pounds creep back on. As of this morning I'm at 176 pounds which is still 22 lighter than a year ago, so that's something.

It's not enough of something, however. I am disappointed in myself and my complete lack of willpower. Granted, I think 5 or so of these creepy pounds came back a month ago in Vegas where I ate anything and everything, and I enjoyed my share of libations 'round the clock. Hey, it was my 10-year anniversary and I was in Vegas for heaven's sake. That aside, I'm not going to shed any more pounds unless I become a hell of a lot more proactive about it. So, I'm starting again. :) Let's see what I can accomplish when I actually have to do more than just pop a pill.

No, I haven't given up on drugs. ;) I'm off the Adipex and am now going to try something else. But this time I'm going to combine pharmaceutical assistance with exercise. And I have to get back to portion control and paying attention to what I put in my mouth. I also need to hold myself accountable--so watch for a flurry of "Don't put that in your mouth!" activity.

Here I am not quite a month ago. Not too bad, if I do say so myself. Just think of how hot I'll be 30 pounds from now!



Here's to attempting the first 10 pounds!

176 today,

Melissa

Don't put that in your mouth! You're not really hungry!

I'm back! Of course, I don't think anyone is reading anymore, and who can blame them. America said it best:

"I've been one poor correspondent, and I been too, too hard to find, but it doesn't mean you ain't been on my mind."

It's a new year, but I won't bore you with any resolutions I've made—I didn't make any! Why set myself up for failure? I still have the same goals I had at the end of 2008: be kinder, gentler, and thinner! I did take a wee step backwards on that last one and have gained a few pounds since I stopped taking the Adipex back in October. I figured the body needed a break. The good news is, I can still fit into all of the clothes I did three months ago (if a little tighter). The bad news is, some pounds have definitely crept back on. Since I don't own a scale (crazy, I know) I don't know exactly how many pounds, but I will be weighing myself when I drop The Bear at school. Results to follow. :)

This is me, just last week:



I wish 1) my husband new how to use my camera ;) and 2) the shoes showed up better—they're HOT!

I have made the resolution decision to NEVER go back to 198 pounds (or even 188 pounds, etc.) My first time on Adipex I changed some of my eating habits for the better, and those changes have stuck with me (like portion control). As of this morning, I'm back on the Adipex and will be making it work even more for me. I have a finish line, after all. I want to lose 40 more pounds before I celebrate my 10th wedding anniversary (yes, John Rykert, that means 10 years!) in Las Vegas!

To do this, I need more than drugs and portion control. I need exercise. I know, I know, you've heard it all before, LOL. But dammit, this time I mean it. So, dear readers, post your comments and help keep me going! I have 164 days to drop 40 pounds. Crap, I'd better get moving!

UPDATE: I weighed myself and am not too disappointed—7 pounds are back, but they will soon be history!

170 today,

Melissa

Don't put that in your mouth! Doughnuts are not a food group!

I had a doughnut today. Silly thing to have when you're trying to lose weight, I know. But since I haven't had one in probably six months (I don't really like doughnuts that much), I figured what the hell! It didn't taste half bad.

Two weeks drug-free, and I still feel good. Somehow I'm managing to keep my energy level up in the afternoons, even without the Adipex. Maybe it's the missing weight. It was literally dragging me down! I haven't weighed myself since my last post so I don't know if pounds have crept back on (or mysteriously disappeared), but the clothes I was wearing two weeks ago still feel the same (some loose, in fact) so I'll take that as a good sign.

I'm actually going to the grocery store tonight, so I'll weigh myself and check back in. THANK YOU to all of you who have continued to read this blog and follow my journey. I may not post as frequently as I would like, but all of your comments and well-wishes really encourage me!

163 today,

Melissa

Don't put that in your mouth! You're off your meds!

Ok, I know. It's been over a month since my last post, and I'm sure noone is reading this anymore. But just in case there are still readers out there, here's my update. I'm down to 163, which is 35 pounds. Which is pretty great. I'm waffling between a size 14-16 (depends on the designer), and I'm now able to wear clothes in L instead of XL (again depends on the designer). These are 2 huge milestones for me. That's the good news.

Here's me now:



Check out what a difference 6 months makes:

Now the bad news. I finished the last round of Adipex that Ivonne gave me last week, which means I'm now in charge of my weight destiny by myself (until I go back in for more drugs, hee hee). This also means I really have to get my butt in gear. I've been doing some heavy duty "exercising" on Sunday nights but 1 day a week isn't going to cut it. Yeah, you've heard it all before. :) Every new day is a chance to make a new decision. Today I decide to eat bon-bons. Kidding. Depending on how my day shapes up, today I decide to start rollerblading again, so my Sunday night "exercise" doesn't kill me, like it almost did last night.

Wish me luck!

163 today,

Melissa